Love hurts!

Only love can hurt like this! Have you ever walked around like you were punched in the heart? I did and still do, but even in the silence and calm I can feel the love all over me. No matter what others think I will always love you! There is simply no way I can love another, because RJ, all the love of that very special kind, I have only for you! I can wait for a million years for you. Not sure if anything that is me will remain, nonetheless if it did, you’d still feel the love I have for you through every pore and the core of my being. I love you, I really do.

Have you ever?

Have I ever loved? Oh yes I did. Loved so hard, that it pained to think that I was away from love. Loved so much, that even silence seemed like pleasure. Loved so much, that ignorance was bliss. Loved so much, that indifference was joy. Loved so much, that loneliness felt like the best company I could find. Loved so much, that a punch to the heart felt like a badge of honour. Loved so much, that being shunned by love didn’t really matter. Loved so much, that love in its silence spoke volumes to me. Loved so much, that expecting nothing much in return kept me happy. Loved so much, that the littlest things meant the world. They still do, no doubt.

I loved so much, that I heard a million things in the silence love sent back to me each time I ventured to speak. I loved so much, that love taught me the best lesson I ever learned.

Love because love draws you near to love. Like a rose, it draws you near to it with the sweet smelling scent its exotic petals house. Like a thorn, it pricks and bleeds you when you get near it. The thorns guard the rose’s heart like I do mine with barbs, unseen by the other. Unlike the rose that shamelessly lets the thorns line the stem, I hide my pain under a façade.

Only love can do what it does to me. Oddly though, I love love itself. Even when it shuns me away I come back to it, for who do I have save for love to turn to.

Even though a million things flow by me each day, there is nothing I see that doesn’t remind me of love. I see him in each thing I do, I hear him in each thing I say. I feel him in everything I touch. No one can take his place for even though he has taken different forms throughout my life, he still is the same! Love came in different forms, shapes, sizes, times and ways, but always eluded me!

I hope love knocks on my door one day. I may be at death’s door, but I assure you I will hound death till I find him who was never mine!

"I find freedom in my ability to transform and liberate myself with art and style because those are the things that freed me from my sadness, from the social scars. Furthermore, I am in no way encouraging anyone to emulate my fashion sense, but rather setting a, hopefully, liberating example for anyone to look inside and know they can become any image or projection imaginable."

The art of it all! #Makeup hides the scars that you wished never saw the light of day. Even that is #art. The pain someone takes to put up a pretty picture is the very essence of #art,

On a Rumi binge! Miss my #man.

Babe, you’re far away but that doesn’t mean I can’t tell you how much I love you! SE Asia is far but you’re always in my heart.
The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere, they’re in each other all along.
                                                                                                    - Rumi.
I have phrases and whole pages memorized,
but nothing can be told of love.
You must wait until you and I
are living together.
In the conversation we’ll have 
then…be patient…then.
                                                                                                    - Rumi.
When the sweet glance of my true love caught my eyes,
Like alchemy, it transformed my copper-like soul.
I searched for Him with a thousand hands,
He stretched out His arms and clutched my feet.
                                                                                                    - Rumi.
When it’s cold and raining,
you are more beautiful.
And the snow brings me
even closer to your lips.
The inner secret, that which was never born,
you are that freshness, and I am with you now.
I can’t explain the goings,
or the comings. You enter suddenly,
and I am nowhere again.
Inside the majesty.
                                                                                                    - Rumi.

I would, I would.

See through me I say,

See through me.

If I could say, I would.

I’ve burned in my heart the day

You found me.

If I man up, maybe I could.

I’ve been taken,

And broken.

Ripped apart,

And shaken.

That it was you who did the fixin’

Did I ever tell you darlin’?

If I ever man up, maybe I would.

You’re far way,

So far away

Yet every time I hear you say,

I love you

It makes my day.

Will I ever tell you someday?

If only I could man up, I would.

My man, I sing the blues.

You the one,

Colouring the hues.

You are the bestest view.

I would, I would

I tell you I would,

If only I should man up, I would.

My head, my heart

My mind and soul.

I love your art,

Like black to coal.

Your voice,

Cuts the pain in my soul,

I should man up and tell you, I should.

The distance is ill,

But you are the pill.

That takes the pain away,

I long to kiss your face someday,

The love burns and fires my soul,

Burn me more, your silence is gold.

I will man up someday and tell you, I would.

Why I love being in love…. with you.

I love you because you’re just as beautiful as you were the day I laid my eyes on you.

Because your eyes glisten more than the stars on a clear night any day.

Because yours is the only voice that fills my heart with joy.

Because you make me feel alive.

Because I love the hope and strength your loving arms give me when you wrap me in them.

Because you pull me from my lowliest lows and take me to the highest heavens.

Because I yearn for you when you think I’m not.

Because life with you in it is life itself.

Because I can finally cry tears of joy!

Because after everything and everyone I get to come back to you.

Because your face, your smile, just about everything makes me see the world anew!